grrrr. this is baaaaaaaaaaad. again. i wonder what it is. to clear up my mind:i keep doing this because: i'm lazy i'm too fat i'm not the type of person to go into this academic field i'm so used to make up an excuse that has worked before…

...crap! (great. the first word in my diary is "crap.") it's my friend, chihiro's birthday tomorrow. i've got to start over from tomorrow on, too. what is your goal? what is your dream again? graduate --> get a job --> get a Ph.D!!!!!!!!!!…